13 years

What to say about Joe after 13 years...
there really is a list.
You are amazing beyond what you think you are. (If that makes sense.) As a husband, father, my best friend and as a person.

You're still the man that I want to come home too. Play boardgames with. Laugh hysterically with. Wake up next too, go on a date with (Even if it is only 'date night' every 9 months.) and spend forever with.

I love you Joe!!
Through13 years of...everything I have been grateful, especially recently, for every time you say 'I love you'. Kiss me and smack me on the butt.

The top 11 things about you that I love...

ONE
Patience... thanks for waiting until year 13 for me to get it right.

Me at 34 years old... and I do mean 'OLD'

I'm dorky, forgetful, opinionated, and love talking. I love my family more than anything and hate entitled people. I have dreams of being a fashion designer and a horse whisperer and a size 6. I am Mormon and sometimes wish that garments came in different colors. I love watching movies with my husband and hanging out with my kids every chance that I have. I love boardgames, chocolate, singing WAY TOO loud in the car to music! And car rides to no where. I have never had a professional massage and secretly would love to have dread locks with pink tips. And a huge tattoo covering my left shoulder and arm. I believe that Jesus is my personal savior and would LOVE to sit with him and ask a TON of questions! I am short both in stature and patience, when told what to do, and my favorite types of movies are comedies. I drive way too fast and wish that I had a super power...like reading peoples minds and flying. I love talking to my husband about anything because he is so smart I learn something new every time. I love talking to my kids because they have such an innocent view of the world. I wish that I had a hundred million dollars to decorate my house like RC Willey and I LOVE sappy cards. I never thought that I would have kids and am so HAPPY that my life turned out to be filled with 4 babies and husband, a mortgage and stretch marks. I secretly would LOVE to go to Comic Con and dress up like a way hot version of Cat woman or the chick from the song 'Do you want to date my avatar'(Joe, you know what I'm talking about). My family is everything and if I had nothing else in the world except them, I would still be the HAPPIEST woman in the world.

Things that make me Happy

Sam
Kaela Faye
Annabelle
KatieRose
When I come home from work and Joe hugs me
letters from Lani
My friends at work
When I hit commission
the Twilight movies
playing boardgames with Joe
My family
hot showers with the lights off
crawling into bed underneath 3 big quilts
talking
listening to classical music
Show tunes Saturday night (on the radio)
My kids giving me kisses
listening to my kids say their prayers
eating chocolate with Megan and Lani
fitting into my size 10 jeans
making Joe laugh
riding horses
hand written letters
the gospel
when Annabelle says night night
When Kaela tells me that I am 'Her best mom'
When Sam yells 'I love you' when he's walking into school
watching a movie at night after a long day at work
hearing my kids laugh
seeing Joe be a dad
talking to Kaira and Jessica on the phone
labor and delivery(really, I love it)
being in the mountains
long car drives, just for the heck of it
buying clothes
.........I am sure there is more. Give me a day and I will think of another list:):)

Two of the most important things that I have learned

1.Sometimes you have to walk through shit to find the better you on the other side of that said shit. No one can do it for you. And sometimes the stress and sadness can be suffocating.
But you can either hold on to what you know, and are safe with so tight that it just begins to slip, like sand, through your desperate fingers,
or you can grow a pair of balls
and
be strong in the face of the unknown.
Brave in the moment when you accept that some things are never going to be the same again,
remorseful when you're the one who has caused the damage
forgiving when someone else damages you
and then trust again when you really love the person that just walked through their own shit too.
Cause lets face it we are all imperfect.
But I think its pretty amazing when we can look at another person,
with all of their imperfections and love them so perfectly.
2.I have also learned that what you want and what is really going to happen are two completely different things entirely.

Ohhhhh, wait....there is a third thing....

3.I have also learned that as we each stand knee deep in our own said shit that we can actually be grateful for all of it.
Weird, I know.

I will stop swearing now.

P.S. There is actually a lot more that I have learned, but I will save those for another day. And don't worry, I will figure out a different swear word to use then.

Best music video EVER

This is just to make everyone laugh

I want my Body back

I hate the part of pregnancy where I can look in the mirror and still see the sexy, svelte thing that I normally am...I'll pause for a moment, cause that's right people... I said sexy and svelte.

But of course no one else does. They just see this Oompa Loompa waddling their way.

The toy Wibble Wobble comes to mind.

*Oh Sigh*